Optimism as cultural rebellion.

Hey. That was an awkward thing to say out loud.

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 19:47:53 -0800

Waiting in the elevator lobby at the Humanities building is a clusterfuck between classes.

A bunch of people are packing in to one, I check in to it, decide I don’t want to be shoved between someone’s armpit and backpack, and wait for the next one to come down.

Guy next to me, says out loud, but not necessarily to me:

“Tall girl. Too tall for the elevator.”

I look at him to respond, can’t think of what I could possibly say back, and instead take the stairs to the 5th floor.

My step-brother is in the ICU. He got drunk after his last final last night at UCLA, wandered away...

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 01:42:40 -0800

My step-brother is in the ICU.

He got drunk after his last final last night at UCLA, wandered away from his friends, and somehow fell off a roof.

He is going to be fine. Just cracked his pelvis and some ribs and beat up his organs.

I didn’t know that at first, I just got the voicemail that he was in the ICU, and the laundry list of his injuries. It was a while before I got the part about being ok.

So I worried and cried for a bit.

I’ve thought about all the times I had visited my brother in the ICU, and how my grandparents were lucky to die at home.

And I don’t know. I guess I have always believed that having had so many people close to me die already would make all subsequent deaths easier. I was wrong.

I am running out of people I love.

It didn’t take long for me to get used to seeing my...

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 23:59:00 -0800

It didn’t take long for me to get used to seeing my friends naked on the internet.

(via willteeyang)

marklisanti: These photos are just mind-blowing. So...

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 14:49:55 -0800

marklisanti:

These photos are just mind-blowing. So mind-blowing, in fact, that I’m not even going to write stupid captions for any of them.

Captured Photo Collection » David Guttenfelder in Afghanistan Photos

These are amazing. I haven’t looked at pictures from Afghanistan in a few weeks, and I’m glad these got posted today, and not say, two days ago.

My cousin Kyle just got back to the U.S. from his second tour yesterday. It’s nice not to wonder.

I can’t wait for the next two weeks to be over and be through with bullshit papers and finals....

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 22:02:26 -0800

I can’t wait for the next two weeks to be over and be through with bullshit papers and finals. I went from writing a 2 page paper on Foucault to a 5 page paper on Yo! Gabba! Gabba! College is weird.

Then I can’t wait to work for two weeks straight and pocket all my generous tips from bosses throwing holiday parties and my regulars feelin’ my holiday warmth.

Then I cant wait for some down time in January to start shopping my eggs around. Who wants em? They are fresh and ready and my mom said it’s ok.

If anyone just “happend” to post an essay on examples of Foucault’s theory of...

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 14:32:07 -0800

If anyone just “happend” to post an essay on examples of Foucault’s theory of governmentalities as evident in One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest, I could just “happen” to paypal you some dough.

coughtwopagesdoublespacedcough

Blah. This is actually a really easy/fun assignment. I just relaxed/worked all week rather than remember I am still in school. I have four term papers due in the next seven days, and haven’t started a single one.

An Honesty Moment:

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 23:04:56 -0800

I’m getting my car washed tomorrow just so the adorable dude that works the drive-thru at Starbucks doesn’t think I’m gross.

(I think that the above statement probably says a lot of things about me that are probably not necessarily “good.”)

So last night I hung out with this cat named Frank. He was super sweet and affectionate. Frank has...

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 22:35:43 -0800

So last night I hung out with this cat named Frank. He was super sweet and affectionate. Frank has both feline AIDS and leukemia.

Today my neighbors came over for thanksgiving. Their youngest kid only has one ear. Well, one ear and a lobe. He was totally sweet and affectionate though, and provided me with entertainment throughout the night.

Lately I’ve been really bummed about my tinnitus getting worse, and not having insurance to get the surgery to improve it.

But I guess all in all, tonight I’m thankful that my cats have made it to 14 years old without any terminal illnesses even though they barf a lot, and that I have 2 full ears even if they don’t work that well.

There is meat in everything. My thanksgiving= all of the appetizer humus, and a bowl of cookie...

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 15:46:46 -0800

There is meat in everything.

My thanksgiving= all of the appetizer humus, and a bowl of cookie dough ice cream.

Not complaining.

Thanksgiving isn't a real holiday.

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 13:07:14 -0800

There is no Twilight Zone marathon.

Two types of friend that everyone should have:

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 02:46:40 -0800

1. The “well-connected” friend. So that when your original plans fall through, and you end up alone at the end of a line that wraps around the club, you immediately have a host walking down the line, calling your name. And after she saunters you in, she immediately places a glass of wine in your hand as she walks you to your friends.

2. (More importantly) the Trader Joe’s employed friend. So that when you go back to their bungalow after the bars, you have a bag appear immediately full of hand-crafted IPA, Charles Shaw Seasonal Nouveau, Asiago Garlic Bread, tapanade, and amazing weed. Always. This shit just appears when you had no idea how much you needed it.

(Note: I am not saying that these are the traits I look for in friends, but when a friendship has been established and these things then become apparent, you sort of start to appreciate the friendship in a new light. There are “perks” to being my friend too, aside from my fucking stellar personality and amazing networking skills. I know.)

I would put money that I say the phrase, “I love your...

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 00:01:00 -0800

I would put money that I say the phrase,

“I love your fucking face.”

more often than anyone else in the world.

Reviewing that last post made me realize I probably consumed $600-700 worth of food and wine...

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 23:54:15 -0800

Reviewing that last post made me realize I probably consumed $600-700 worth of food and wine tonight, easily.

That makes me sick. Think if I purge that my vom will be worth anywhere near that much?

I work in fine-dining.

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 23:51:50 -0800

I’ve never been rich, my family has never been rich, but I have always been a very hard worker and a very good interview which lead me to a very good college-job.

However, it has always left me uansettled that I work at a place that I could never,ever afford to eat at on my own. So when my boss invited myself and the other trainers in to dinner tonight, and said to order with abandon, we did.

There were 5 of us.
We had:

Sushi:
1 Sunrise Roll (Panko fried roll)
1 veggie Sunrise roll
1 Lankanilau roll (Kobe beef and snow crab)
1 Ekolu roll (3 type of tuna)
1 Aloha roll (rainbow roll)
1 sashimi sampler

Appetizers:
1 tuna tartare
1 autumn squash bisque
2 blackened ahi
1 calamari
1 tofu “calamari”

Salad:
I had a grilled endive salad with pomegranite reduction. Everyone else had whatever.

Entree:
Everyone has fish but me. I had grilled misoyaki tofu.

Dessert:
1 chocolate soufflé
1 pineapple upside down cake
1 macademia nut tart
1 blackberry tart
1 sorbet trio

Wine:
3 bottles of our brands Riesling
2 bottles Trinchero Pinot Noir
1 round of 25 year-old port

This was the fullfillment of some strange fantasy I never knew I had. I am absolutely drunk off amazing wine and phenomenal port, and stuffed to gills. I will never be able to afford (or to justify) the kind of meal I just had. So to have it as a reward for being good at what is essentially a minimum wage job has my mind blown.

I am fatter and happier than I ever thought I could be.

I really just want someone to day-drink/make-out with on my days off. And then I want them to leave...

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 20:48:09 -0800

I really just want someone to day-drink/make-out with on my days off. And then I want them to leave me alone all the rest of the time.

I have a lot of days off this week.

One my mom’s horses, Stormy. He is not my friend.

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 17:25:25 -0800

One my mom’s horses, Stormy.

He is not my friend.

Photo

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 17:24:30 -0800

Photo

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 17:23:38 -0800

Went on a long hike by myself today to clear my head after a...

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 17:22:42 -0800

Went on a long hike by myself today to clear my head after a treacherous weekend.

My iPod was on point, and this pool is still one of my favorite places in California.

I woke up this morning with a very deep need to hang out with...

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 13:10:14 -0800

I woke up this morning with a very deep need to hang out with this man on a personal level.